current state of mind: underwhelmed
And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
But I don't know how
~ “Wonderwall” by Oasis
I am not broken and I certainly don’t need saving.
Bold words; bold statement. Interestingly, sometimes when I think them to myself, they truly are assertive and confident. Other times, however, they are tentative and thought with the inflection of a question. We’ve all been in that place where our hearts and our minds refuse to be in sync.
Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda.
Logic and reasoning should always prevail over feelings. If they would, then we wouldn’t need to be so introspective. We wouldn’t want to punch people in the face one moment and kiss them the next. We wouldn’t need to spend 45 minutes in a room with a stranger we are paying just so that we can talk without feeling as if we are a burden. If feelings could be suffocated by logic and reasoning, we’d not wonder why we want to live our clean and practical lives when happiness is waiting for us to grab it if we’d just be willing to take a chance or get a little messy.
I recently watched “Mary Poppins” with ‘HammockGuy”. He isn’t really “HammockGuy” anymore, as he has a new apartment with no hammock – still, for continuity we’ll stick with the name. I really enjoy having a friend who is willing to abandon all pretense and enjoy a musical every once in a while. We’d been planning this “MP” night for months and it finally came to fruition. Woo hoo for that! I love the film and watch it every couple of months for the sheer joy of it. It is an exceedingly different experience, however, watching it with another adult who also appreciates the lessons it teaches.
1. I don’t think I have ever heard someone say “You know, Mary Poppins is kind of a bitch. I mean, ‘practically perfect in every way’. Who says that?” I was taken aback and rather defensive about someone calling Mary Poppins a bitch. I mean, she has rosy cheeks, is never cross, and plays games – all sorts. After careful reflection, I was forced to agree that she could be misunderstood. I mean, Mary Poppins does a lot to keep herself emotionally detached from the people around her. No matter her façade, she is far more human than she gives herself credit for. I suppose most logical and practical people are.
2. The ability to magically clean up the nursery, jump into chalk pavement pictures, have tea parties on the ceiling, and go anywhere via flying umbrella . . . well, if you are really honest with yourself, it’s not that far of a stretch to say that you’d “take a human life” for those powers. It may not be politically correct to say it aloud – but it sure is nice when someone understands where you are coming from.
3. Sometimes people don’t see past the end of their own noses – and it is sad because there are a lot of people and things which deserve to be noticed. Chimney sweeps, crazy sea admirals, bird ladies, and children are just a few to note.
4. When someone’s actions leave you speechless, there is always one word which appropriately addresses the situation: supercalifragilisticexpialidocious. Whether you have been ‘sacked’, proposed to, or had your heart broken, the word fits. Sometimes it may be necessary to say it several times until the manic laughter starts – but hell, you may end up having a tea party on the ceiling as a result.
5. When you want to lash out at someone for being a jerkface, simply tell them to “go fly a kite”. If necessary, pantomime the string and send the kite soaring into the air. And if they take offense you can backpedal by saying, “Well, not you personally. . .” It worked for Constable Jones.
If you need a little break from reality, feel free to borrow my copy of the 40th Anniversary Edition of Mary Poppins on DVD – or just watch it with me.
PERSONAL NOTE: Thanks for being my friend and for sharing your birthday cheesecake.
CONFIDENTIAL NOTE: supercalifragilisticexpialidocious