05 September 2008

Broken Pie Crust Everywhere

Current mood: nostalgic

It's been a few years and I can't deny
The thought of you still makes me crazy
I think about you in the summertime
I'm sittin' here in the sun
With you on my mind
~ "Summertime" by NKOTB

Today, someone told me that I would be in a committed relationship within a year. I assume they consulted the stars or something – because I assure you that I have no intention of fulfilling that prophecy. I have goals – plans – and to be honest, I don't have the patience or the time to play games with little boys who cannot decide what it is they really want. I have grown weary from pie crust promises and empty soliloquies.

If I want to hear flowery words of adoration and romance, I can easily grab some Shakespeare and recite it aloud. You see, I have loved purely and truly before. It wasn't enough. It didn't matter that we were compatible and on the same wavelength most of the time. Loving someone doesn't heal them. Wish it did; but it doesn't.

And if you're ever wondering if love can be true
Well, think of me and remember darling like I, like I do
Old friendships fade away, love falls apart
And you've not spent a single day outside my heart
But, there's just one more dream that I have left for you
I hope you're smiling when he turns around and says I do.
~ "I Do" by Jude

It is my last full day in San Diego and I am working – once again! LOL But, no worries, yesterday I broke down and actually purchased the new NKOTB CD. It is actually quite good. I am definitely digging the new, more grown up sound. Plus, the CD was cheaper than downloading the songs from iTunes. Thank you, Target! And the album insert is pretty nice on the eyes. Those boys aged well and it is obvious why their comeback tour is selling out. Who cares that they are married with children? Up on stage, they are still just Jordan, Jon, Donnie, Joey, and Danny – with scores of adoring, screaming fans. The thing is . . . all of us fans are now in our 30s and know that actually meeting them is never going to happen! I don't know why as teenagers we believed that once they met us, they'd fall as in love as we were. Silly girls - we were!

Hopefully after work, we'll go to the beach, possibly a bar, and I can enjoy some time here without disillusionment and wanting to kick someone in the face!

PERSONAL NOTE: You won't read this anyway . . . so my words are wasted. Still, know that I hold you close in memories.

Eidetic Vision

Main Entry: ei·det·ic Pronunciation: I-'det-ik Function: adjective : marked by or involving extraordinarily accurate and vivid recall especially of visual images - an eidetic memory Merriam-Webster's Dictionary, © 2002 Merriam-Webster, Inc.