current state of mind: weary
Imagine all the times that you could take back
What would you have done differently?
Thoughts in your head that you never said
A heart that you broke and left for dead
~ “Just One Day” by Better than Ezra
Another Girl Genius I know is having a really lousy February 1st. She had the first hearing for her divorce and her house got broken into. I am not blaming anyone specifically; but it is curious that the only day her soon-to-be-Ex is in town, her house is inconveniently burglarized (two days after the locks were changed to keep the soon-to-be-Ex out).
Her experience really makes me realize that I am pretty damn lucky. I am friends with almost all of my exes, including both husbands. Granted, some are just out of my life because time and distance – but I cannot think of any who harbor ill-will toward me. I know that I wouldn’t mind kicking a few in the shins – but that is the extent of my “dismay”. The truth is that I just don’t hold onto that negativity. It isn’t worth it. I try to focus on the good times and cherish them for what they were – moments in time where I was able to bask in the sunshine of happiness.
My friend, “Halle+” stopped by my desk today and as always, I was reminded how precious those sunshine moments are. She always has a smile and a hug for anyone who wants or needs one. I know very few people who are so genuine and loving without any expectation. It is a blessing for which I am grateful. I have a lot on my mind today and am not able to focus on putting things into coherent words – but if you leave this post with anything, leave it with this:
Be the sunshine in someone’s life today. You don’t know how important of a moment you may create by just being you.
PERSONAL NOTE: I am looking forward to our get-away next week!
CONFIDENTIAL NOTE: I miss you today and every day.