10 March 2010

Perfect Plank for Me to Walk

current mood: exhausted and melancholy

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
~ “Vanilla Twilight” by Owl City

Why is it that when one feels vulnerable or hurt the best defense is always a good offense? I am non-confrontational by nature. Therefore, I tend to engage in guerilla warfare (aka passive-aggressive behaviour) disguised as hostility. My tone of voice and facial expressions give more away than I like to admit. Over the past 14 months, I have put forth considerable effort in reducing my passive-aggressive tendencies. I actively practice assertiveness and direct discussion on a daily basis. I made the decision to exercise rational thought and logic – and for the most part, I have succeeded. Strike that – I HAD succeeded, until I started on this special Lenten, high nutrition, primarily liquid, diet. It appears that restricted calories and “grey-colored” smoothies have not done much for my winning personality. For that, I am sorry.

In other news, I received a “tweet” from an ex-boyfriend today that told me my childhood teen idol is dead. Corey Haim apparently died of a drug overdose this morning at the age of 38. I guess he never could kill the demons which haunted him. Why is it that so many child-stars end up so horribly unhappy as adults? What’s really crazy is that his “wikipedia” article has already been updated with his death and it’s been less than 3 hours. His personal; website is NOT updated, however, and instead is advertising his new film:
“Giordano World Entertainment is showcasing AMERICAN SUNSET which is being touted as Corey Haim’s big comeback to movies.”
I have two comments to this: 1. By theatrical release, they mean “RedBox” and 2. Not so sure that this “comeback role” will help his career now.

The website BIO section also had this to say, “BTW, Ladies: COREY is currently absolutely happy, thrilled and completely cool about being single – yes, he’s available!” The website doth protest too much, methinks. Moot point now, I imagine.

Still, I find the situation rather sad. Granted, I am not as profoundly effected as I was when Heath Ledger died – but, perhaps the reason is that most people thought Corey Haim was dead already (except me and the 5 people who watched that show, ‘The Two Coreys’ on A&E a couple years ago). I am interested to see how his death is Corey Feldman’s gain. More royalty checks when USA Network holds a Corey Haim movie marathon, including such greats as “Lost Boys” and “License to Drive”.

PERSONAL NOTE: I love you. I was out of line. My apologies.

CONFIDENTIAL NOTE: Words are more than black and white.

Eidetic Vision

Main Entry: ei·det·ic Pronunciation: I-'det-ik Function: adjective : marked by or involving extraordinarily accurate and vivid recall especially of visual images - an eidetic memory Merriam-Webster's Dictionary, © 2002 Merriam-Webster, Inc.